... on how things have been. It's been ok. I have had a good day and my fears/concerns (whatever) have been correct. A spoke to a student-teacher today and she said she feels the same way about the school. It's a rough and nasty atmosphere and nothing seems to be done about students and their behaviour.
She also agreed on what i said about some of the teachers. They are nice but they seem worn out and laissez faire -at the age of 28 - about their work. We both cam to the conclusion that it won't feel better after a year (which is what everyone says), it seems to get better because you get use to it and no longer cares as it takes more effort trying to sort things out rather than just "going with it". The kids misbehave because they know they can get away with it and that's not a school I'd like to work in.
+ the pay is horrible for the sort of job we do. We should get extra for being in such a nasty and unhealthy environment. Any other job would have been closed down for being "unsafe" and run down building-wise and staff-wise.
She had also experienced that they said she'd had a "great" lesson when in fact she knew/felt that it had been total bollocks. This is one of the reasons to why I decided to quit. If I feel it's gone down the drains and other comment on how "brilliant" I'm handling it then it makes me wonder what their standards are like? I can also feel -after 5 months - that I can't really be bothered to bother (if that makes sense). I know that would make me a crap teacher and I know I am a good teacher and can get even better. I'm mostly upset about how this experience have made me question my abilities and future within the world of education - and I really like it!
It was nice to have my opinions confirmed by someone else.
I've only got a bit more than a week. Yeay!
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