In Which I Realise My Uselessness

Another year has passed and have I done the things I said I would? Probably not, which means I'll have a helluva lot of stuff to do if I all of a sudden find out I only have x months left to live. And as if that would not be stressful enough.

One thing I know I told myself was that I had to get better with exercising (read; lose weight - a lot!) but that has not happened. Well maybe a little bit but not enough.

Am I engaged? I'm not even going to answer that question..

Have I dared standing up to Boyfriend's parents? Again, a big fat N O... which, I'm sure, is how they see me.

Do I speak [a little] Mandarin? Not a word.

Did I dive with Great Whites in South Africa? Nooooooooo!

Have I found something that would 'replace' the interests I had in the 'old country? Nope. Have decided/realised I can't replace long walks in the forest with dogs/ cuddling horses on a big field.

Did I win millions of £s on the lottery? It was always a long shot...

Stop buying lottery tickets as never winning anyway? See item above.

Do I find 5 good reasons each morning to remain in England? Does Boyfriend x 5 count?

Shave my legs every morning? Ha ha ha ha ha ha!

Isn't this depressing??

Swear less? Hell no!

Write one letter each week to my grandmother? I am ashamed of myself. Very ashamed.

Saved money? With all that nice stuff in the stores?!

Find a new calling like furniture-making? I painted a kid's chair for my niece for Christmas.

Have sex twice a day? In his dreams!

Do I live in a house? Credit crunch anyone?

Not getting myself worked up about things out of my control? My heart rate is constantly on severe stress i.e. being chased by Mike Myers in a space of 10 square metres...

Not taking anti-depressants? Last day of the year and I've made it so far - just.

Love Boyfriend a little bit more each day? We had that rough spot in April (thanks to Him) but yes - more than ever. So one thing that's gone to plan. Yeay for me!!

Become an auntie? YEEEEEES!

My very own pet? The Goose (in the river).

I guess the last few - more positive items - mean I am not totally Useless with a capital U but I wish they were all good ones. It could have been a lot worse though and I am very happy in respect of my family and the fact I am not on crack cocaine! I'll just have to keep working on the stuff I failed to do especially item 3, which is the scariest thing e v e r!! I'd rather eat a worm covered in pigeon poop!

Happy New Year Everyone
and
keep smiling!!